Down the Doldrums

I MISS YOU.

I don't know why, but I started tearing
when I think about you and us and everything else we had and have.

This time, I had no choice but to let go
Time was ticking
I could literally feel it breathing down my neck
I couldn't tell you
Because I always wanted to protect you
Just like how I hope I always have

I feel like I know why it had to happen
Sometimes things don't just happen because of sheer willpower
At times, much as my strength of stubborness would have pulled us through
But I think you were placed in my life for me to learn
I don't regret anything and I am very happy you were in my life
I still think back and feel very blessed you were with me at the stage where I was growing
From a girl to a woman
My character had been molded by you
Thank you

You always have a place
In me
Cos you are special to me
I have always loved you..for you

Now I realise love is not easily defined
It cuts across categories and its hard to understand
But..I can love you and I do.

I wish sincerely there was some other way
I wish I could take the hurt for you
I wish I could
I wish I really could

feb 18

feels like migration.

tad new, super scary and unsettling.

new place feels like a good fit. very soothing and comforting


very often, i don't dare to move from my existing place
the status may have changed long before i decide i should
maybe i already knew the end status, but i never could bear to break it
because the silence is sometimes so still, and unbearable
because i wonder what the person would do from now on
because i rather protect the person first

柳暗花明又一春。
感觉对了。很奇妙，不用想很多。。很自然的放手。
因为有他来握着。

满满的，慢慢的。。我体会到父母的痛苦，现在想起只能说对不起。
当时的我想要试，即使是碰壁也罢。
人不轻轻狂妄少年，是对和错没有人能断定。
最后的问题是：
你快乐吗？

原来人的丝微真的低不过成长。多坚定的信念都会变。
认知，这时刻来的比较早。

我很幸福。有的爱是好的。
还是会想，如果当时没有说请会是怎样？
我和他的原点会烟飞云灭？

Tired

可能累不贴切
是精神的过渡累积。心会烦，会计叫。

没骨气，让人抬不起头
有了骨气和自尊就晖别了进度。

可惜。那里的风雨无阻？


有时后，很想出海。很向往微风和绿海。
就一天，留恋。。流连

24 years of joy

Happy Birthday to Me
Happy Birthday to Me
Happy Birthday to Jasmine
Happy Birthday to Me

Best Birthday Card: Hazel's Birthday sms with her birthday song
Best Present for myself: HeeHee.. Chloe Dress
Best Dinner: With Kat and with my family..(doesn't count as best..bestest?)
Best Birthday!!

Stock count..

1 See by Chloe Blue Silk Top (super love)
1 Chloe White Chiffon Dress
1 DVF Wrap
1 Anna Sui Butterfly Sleeves Short Summer Dress

Jan's my month

Very excited..cos I bought all the episodes of Hana Kimi comics le
But now, whenever I read the book, I'd think of Wu Zun
Somehow, he fits the character really nicely
but thats not a truthful analysis, because I don't know what kind of person he really is
so...he acted up to the characteristics of Quan

Today..
At THERAPY..I went to collect my White Chloe dress, and saw the beaded BCBG chiffon dress
Lydia asked if I wanted to try, so I said ok
However, an auntie and her friend's daughter came in and wanted to try clothes
so I let them go first
She tried MY dress, which is fine by me
But then both of them left the store so I tried my BCBG dress
I was showing Trevor when the auntie came back and said
"You want to buy ah?"
"umm"
"You want ah"
"ya.."

Then she shouts, "She wants to buy, I also want to buy."
Auntie turns and says " I thought you try for fun only, but the dress is mine, I tried it on first"
So I kept quiet..didn't want to argue the facts
Lydia had to plead lor
So in the end..(also dunno why..I damn nice) I let her have the dress!
Confirm ruin one..oh, auntie calls it BGNG..
FAINT.

expiration date

sarang eh yo
什么是简单的爱情呢？

在天愿做比翼鸟。。

是一种每个人都得经过的考题吧？
初次见面的羞涩，或能碰面的运气
互相吸引，按捺不住的海誓山盟
爱当头，情到易浓

突然断了线，是拉太紧还是拉太久了？

人嘛，　都是喜新厌旧的吧。。
到了大家都认为是成年的岁数，可是还是对很多人世物不了解
突然觉得，只有感情是不一定的模式
付出再多，也可能换不来幸福
经过再多也可能是略知一二
学会保护心的人，没爱过。

圣诞节要来了，今年特别感觉不到温馨
想着一壶香茶，和很甜的西饼
卷在角落，看着窗外的雨
会很温暖哦。

Dream came true

I have just realised that a week into this pushcart,
my dream came true.
I guess it was just too real that I didn't let it register

I wished to open a retail store before I graduated
and though this is not a store but its my pushcart
so, moving on to my retail empire
life is sweet now..

I'm happy to tell everyone that everyday of this week, I have not lost money
I know a lot of people care, and I just want to say thank you
we have also received very good feedback about our range
which is perhaps one of the best thing I wanna hear about
Other than my school actually opening a com course that I need to take to graduate

Let me recall Aiko with long hair..so cute

My worth

Super cute..

My worth...

I am worth $2,138,830 on HumanForSale.com

Wonder if I can rent me out??

Quiet Monday

Its tough to run your own business
I hear many people say
There are many tedious admin matters which I really do hate, I admit
But it is not hard like what a lot of people say
True, mine is a small scale
But,I started out somewhere and I definitely know a bit more than you who say

Weekdays are pretty quiet at The Cathay
But we get by, of course, its still to early to gauge
If our product range gets well received, we may consider setting the boutique elsewhere
Some executives came by and took a dress priced at $48 and said
"This is expensive"
I thought to myself, how can that be expensive for a dress? I pay $59 and think its reasonable
What then is reasonable to them?
If I were to pay $15 for a dress, which I did for an OP summer dress,
I never wore it again, somehow, I felt that I bought it because it was cheap and I didn't really like it
Which is why Singaporeans always ask for discounts and get attracted to sales
We are such whores for value for money buys
Never mind the fact that you have perhaps 50bras sitting in the cupboard and you can only wear 2? a day
Never mind the fact that you have an exploding shoe cabinet, because it says "Sale"
Therefore, we can build a bigger cabinet
Hmm,
Oh, and if the dress if cheap to you, then clearly you don't know what is style
I would never bargain down for a marc jacobs item
Unless it is on discount already
Typical Singaporean

I came across a blog some time ago
it says, I'm the happiest thing that happened to someone
It shouted something to me
but I had nothing to say
Its sad really, when the person is just another person that has walked past me in my life
But I am something happy to the person
you know what,
the fact that I mean something to some people makes me happy already
It has proven my existence and the meaning of life